Goodbye my love

No prolonged adieu

No patient hope

No letters, no messages,

No more of me and you

No more walks through Riverside Park

No more sneaking you into my house

Never again to smell your lotioned skin

No more to hold those hands of yours that never sweat

Goodbye my lover

No more waking up by your side

Never again to watch how a goddess sleeps

No more arguments over nonsense

Who said what when

And what for

No more chastising me for touching your face

Talking about those crazy dreams you have

When you forget to take your lexipro

Never to complain again about me being too aggressive

Only to have you tell me that you like the way my teeth feel right... there

No more teasing you about how you masturbate in your sleep

And certainly no more talk of reliving our first time,

Under the stars

Never again to kiss you from head to toe,

Pause there, and take you where you want to go

Goodbye my angel

My lifeblood, my ethereal

My eternal,

Goodbye to my disco, my inferno

Romeo to my Juliet,

Because we both know you wore the pants

Never again to call you my darling

No more the touch of your hands,

The caress of your lips

The sickly sweet of cigarette smoke on your breath

Telling me that you think cloves are the best;

I’ll have to forget the softness of your chest,

And the way nighttime on your shoulders fell

Never again to hold you

Keeping you upright because of the way the liquor used to tie your tongue up in

knots

And still you’d mumble how much you want me

No more need to tip the cab driver

On those rides home where you'd try to take me

What a lie it was to say I’d never let you go

Goodbye my friend,

My sweetness, my joy

No longer my pleasure or my pain

Goodbye to having you rack my brain

With harried thoughts of you

No more jealousy over your all male clique of friends

Because sadly enough, I could never trust you

Goodbye to promises

To sacrosanctity,

To having said there’d always be a ‘you and me’

So long to what was once considered safety,

As I tumble head first into the unknown

Your body, once known, falters in time as the mapwork of what was once mine

Succumbs to the new concept known as goodbye

The soon to be feelings of discovering another lover

Will cover my memories of your not unblemished skin;

The raised parts like the birthmark on your inner thigh

When what is still known replies “goodbye” to itself,

As what was “we” fades away

‘Once’ hopes and ‘once upon a time’ dreams

Fail to fulfill and fade to gray

Farewell to what was, had been and can no longer be

So much for having defined in you what it is I thought love could be

Goodbye to the peace of mind I had by always having you by my side

Having a lady that, not in a possessive way, I could call mine

For now I'm alone, though likely not for long

And while I let you go, I’m still holding on to the belief that my capacity for love did not die

Goodbye to looking into those deep brown eyes

Though nothing ever seems to hurt as much

As knowing that I'll never again see you smile

© 2008 Eugene Aarons-Cooke